Often times we fret over that which weeks, months, or years later fills us with embarrassment for expending so much energy. It’s only natural as human beings for the mind to be routed onto the negative path, the path filled with anger and resentment toward the self. It’s a caustic and bitter time filled with tears and negative energy, the type that permeates everything if caution isn’t taken sooner rather than later. Lately the universe has thrown me several curveballs in several aspects of my life, all life altering and eye opening in their own ways. Of course I was angry for weeks but as time has gone by I’ve begun to realize I poured myself into darkness when all the while the universe held a pathway of light I could walk.
This pathway is long and arduous, it looks easier than it is, light peeks between tall tree’s leaves but it touches the pathway nonetheless. I refer to this light as hope, scattered but present and lately I’m learning to embrace it. The unfortunate part of life is being hurt by those you thought loved you or you had mutual agreement on kindness and understanding. I’ve learned time and time again the pain inflicted by family is often more unbelievable and hurtful than by friends or acquaintances (not to say the latter is any better). It’s easy to hate people for hurting you but it takes kindness to move past this hate and instead consideration of the pain they may be going through. I’m still learning to grab and hold onto this kindness instead of embracing hate. It’s a daily battle but often they say you aren’t given more than you can handle. Pause for a minute and envision your current predicament like a test in school. You may fail the initial test but many more are to come. One failure doesn’t define you as a person nor does one moment rife* with hate and harsh thoughts towards yourself or another.
In a way, life is a series of test on several pathways, those composed of hatred and those composed of light & hope. We bounce between these pathways to some extent as all humans do. It’s okay to be filled with uncertainty, it’s okay to be angry, to be sad, to fail, to stumble, it’s okay to be human. There’s no need to aim for perfection especially in this modern world of social media. Never compare your behind the scenes and blooper reels to the carefully curated highlight reel of another. Many fail to show their true depth on social media, they cast away layers for the sake of likes and followings, but that’s okay. We all move through this universe as individuals and we all face some sort of struggle so don’t let the smiles fool you. Instead remember the universe’s timing. Where you stand now will inevitably change through you because you’re stronger than you think. You’re meant for greatnese just like anyone is but don’t shame your humanity in a moment of sadness or anger, learn to live and let go. Live in the moment and cry, write, or talk the feelings aside.
There’s no shame in being human in spite of what people may say. The universe put you here for a reason so keep fighting for your own pathway of light, for balance, peace, happiness. All things are at your fingertips if you push the darknesss aside instead of indulging in it. Rise above it and those who have wronged and hurt you. We all must face our choices sometime and the universe seeks balance always. Don’t dwell but do reflect and cry and scream (within reason) if need be. Let your emotions flow much like the pathways do, freely and unstructured. Life is hard enough as is, why make it more difficult for yourself by being your own obstacle. Deep breathe and reclaim your throne here and now. You’re meant to live a life that transcends just pain and sadness. I say this because I’ve lived and felt this even as I write this piece now. I can’t tell you when it’ll get better when I’m still going through the emotions but I assure you all things must come to an end, if not transform into something more and/or better. Never forget the universe is on your side.
Aria x
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